So my calorie and exercise logs on now on Excel spreadsheets, go figure, me once again using excel because there is a template for everything! I want to keep going with this although I am finding hard to make the time to put things on here. Maybe now that I got a blackberry, I can post on the go when I am on the train and stuff.
I am taking a new job next week and have to say goodbye to DSW which makes me sad. The job also is in brooklyn so I will now be living and working in brooklyn and have even less time or occassion to be in the city visiting my friends. I don't know how I feel about it but I know it's something I must do because I can't turn down a chance to make money again and start paying down all my debt.
The small claims case is this week and I am nervous because who knows what that SOB has under his sleeve to screw me out of my final paycheck. IDK, I have to do this for myself, whether or not i get the $1700 he owes me.
My birthday is in 2 weeks, another year older another year farther from my goals and dreams. In the last year I can't say I learned much other than a few painful lessons about not trusting people and who you think your friends are.
anyways, im working today from 12-11:30pm and am working out first so it's a long day ahead
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
Facebook Deletions
ok so today i deleted 2 people that really had a special place in my heart. When I say deleted, I mean off the almighty facebook.
The first is someone that really shouldnt mean that much to me, since i didnt really have time to get to know him really well. he first came to new york and i was one of his first friends. he actually reminded me what it was like to not have limits of time or money and just walk around the city and chat. I miss doing that and never really did it with anyone because of my health issues. sadly, with my overenthusiasm for a friend, i think i was a little too overbearing at first. now while this usually weeds the good ones out for long term posterity, simultaneously he was being courted by the glamorous "scene" in no small part thanks to my "friend" dan. i think had he not been treated to the A list life, fun times in the house with 10 of his peers, free food, drink and brunches, he prob would have made an effort to care about me and try to make a friendship work and build the bricks, but with the easy way out, he chose not to. and i dont spite him. im just upset that it bothers me so much. so, with the new marc here, the one who doesnt try hard, especially without any reciprocation, ive decided to delete. if he ever becomes real, and wants to make a friend, im here, but i wont keep chasing like a loser.
the other one, i think ive just gotten to the point where i feel bad for him. i cant continue watching him on his own self destructive path. when i first met him, he was genuine, caring and sweet. maybe the fact he had a bit of a complex helped. well, with time he has become narcissistic, egotistical and delusional and has lost himself in trying to fit in with others he wishes he was. Spending too much to fit in, being abused emotionally and financially and worse, getting into drugs. I lost him and cant watch him fall down the slippery slope any longer. I pray he gets to a point of utter frustration and gets back to the maturity level and sincerity that he had when we first met.
The first is someone that really shouldnt mean that much to me, since i didnt really have time to get to know him really well. he first came to new york and i was one of his first friends. he actually reminded me what it was like to not have limits of time or money and just walk around the city and chat. I miss doing that and never really did it with anyone because of my health issues. sadly, with my overenthusiasm for a friend, i think i was a little too overbearing at first. now while this usually weeds the good ones out for long term posterity, simultaneously he was being courted by the glamorous "scene" in no small part thanks to my "friend" dan. i think had he not been treated to the A list life, fun times in the house with 10 of his peers, free food, drink and brunches, he prob would have made an effort to care about me and try to make a friendship work and build the bricks, but with the easy way out, he chose not to. and i dont spite him. im just upset that it bothers me so much. so, with the new marc here, the one who doesnt try hard, especially without any reciprocation, ive decided to delete. if he ever becomes real, and wants to make a friend, im here, but i wont keep chasing like a loser.
the other one, i think ive just gotten to the point where i feel bad for him. i cant continue watching him on his own self destructive path. when i first met him, he was genuine, caring and sweet. maybe the fact he had a bit of a complex helped. well, with time he has become narcissistic, egotistical and delusional and has lost himself in trying to fit in with others he wishes he was. Spending too much to fit in, being abused emotionally and financially and worse, getting into drugs. I lost him and cant watch him fall down the slippery slope any longer. I pray he gets to a point of utter frustration and gets back to the maturity level and sincerity that he had when we first met.
Food and Exercise - 08-24-2009
Food - 1500
Breakfast: Special K bar (90)
Post W/O: workout shake (260)
Lunch: Healthy Choice meal (380)
Snack: Yogurt (170)
Dinner: Chicken Skewer and 1/2 Hot dog bun (200)
Indian dinner with bread roll (370)
Dessert: 1 pc of chocolate (30)
Exercise:
Met with Kyle!! 15 minutes on the treadmill.. running, 10 minutes on the ellyptical, 30 minutes of working upper body on machines
Breakfast: Special K bar (90)
Post W/O: workout shake (260)
Lunch: Healthy Choice meal (380)
Snack: Yogurt (170)
Dinner: Chicken Skewer and 1/2 Hot dog bun (200)
Indian dinner with bread roll (370)
Dessert: 1 pc of chocolate (30)
Exercise:
Met with Kyle!! 15 minutes on the treadmill.. running, 10 minutes on the ellyptical, 30 minutes of working upper body on machines
Sunday, August 23, 2009
VV and Success
OK so it's 2:30 am and I just finished rewriting the agreement for VV. I am excited. If this thing takes off even half as successfully as planned, I could make alot of money and even maybe move to LV!!
In my own path to success, I realize that although my intentions are sincere and hopeful, my sucess in this life may not be by my own hand but rather by being connected and helpful to those who become successful around me.
If I cannot make my own waves, at least I can be smart enough to remain in the wake!
M
In my own path to success, I realize that although my intentions are sincere and hopeful, my sucess in this life may not be by my own hand but rather by being connected and helpful to those who become successful around me.
If I cannot make my own waves, at least I can be smart enough to remain in the wake!
M
Food and Exercise - 08-23-2009
Food:
Breakfast: 2 Eggs - Sunny Side Up, Bialy with cream cheese and a spoon full of jelly
Snack: Cup of Light Yogurt
Dinner: Spaghetti in a bag (~300 calories)
After work: Burger, no bread, pickles
After gym: Peach and Diet Snapple
Exercise:
45 minutes on the treadclimber
2 weight machines, 12 reps each
Meeting Kyle tomorrow morning for training session 1. SOOOO EXCITED!!
Breakfast: 2 Eggs - Sunny Side Up, Bialy with cream cheese and a spoon full of jelly
Snack: Cup of Light Yogurt
Dinner: Spaghetti in a bag (~300 calories)
After work: Burger, no bread, pickles
After gym: Peach and Diet Snapple
Exercise:
45 minutes on the treadclimber
2 weight machines, 12 reps each
Meeting Kyle tomorrow morning for training session 1. SOOOO EXCITED!!
Sunday Morning fun
I think I will post and then save as a draft until the day is over and post my thoughts. Or I will post in pieces, cause I'm just that way lol. I am excited about this today cause it will keep me going on track. I need to fix my eating habits. I eat sooo poorly and I don't think my egg and cheese is a very smart thing to eat. Time to start medifasting I think!
Ok, off to clean my room some more. I love living in the front of the house although I don't have as much room to keep things. So I'm about to go figure it out. I guess this blog will help remind me how average my life is but that my thoughts are anything but.
I have work from 1:30-9 and then I am going to the gym to put in my half hour. Baby steps cause those I know I can stick with.
Ok, off to clean my room some more. I love living in the front of the house although I don't have as much room to keep things. So I'm about to go figure it out. I guess this blog will help remind me how average my life is but that my thoughts are anything but.
I have work from 1:30-9 and then I am going to the gym to put in my half hour. Baby steps cause those I know I can stick with.
Day 1
OK so last night I signed up for the blog. I'll be able to vent and talk about whoever I want. Basically the seesaw of my life's emotions include a wanker from the UK and one or two "scenesters" from here.
Someone once told me you can't change who people are or what they do, you can only change your reaction to it. So, from now on, with most people in my life, I will not expect too much so I can't really be let down. Everything will just be a nice surprise if something good comes of it or they reciprocate my own interest and kindness.
I also hope to post daily food and exercise stuff so I keep on track. No one is going to read this anyways since I am not that narcistic nor am I telling anyone about it.
Someone once told me you can't change who people are or what they do, you can only change your reaction to it. So, from now on, with most people in my life, I will not expect too much so I can't really be let down. Everything will just be a nice surprise if something good comes of it or they reciprocate my own interest and kindness.
I also hope to post daily food and exercise stuff so I keep on track. No one is going to read this anyways since I am not that narcistic nor am I telling anyone about it.
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