Facebook Deletions

ok so today i deleted 2 people that really had a special place in my heart. When I say deleted, I mean off the almighty facebook.

The first is someone that really shouldnt mean that much to me, since i didnt really have time to get to know him really well. he first came to new york and i was one of his first friends. he actually reminded me what it was like to not have limits of time or money and just walk around the city and chat. I miss doing that and never really did it with anyone because of my health issues. sadly, with my overenthusiasm for a friend, i think i was a little too overbearing at first. now while this usually weeds the good ones out for long term posterity, simultaneously he was being courted by the glamorous "scene" in no small part thanks to my "friend" dan. i think had he not been treated to the A list life, fun times in the house with 10 of his peers, free food, drink and brunches, he prob would have made an effort to care about me and try to make a friendship work and build the bricks, but with the easy way out, he chose not to. and i dont spite him. im just upset that it bothers me so much. so, with the new marc here, the one who doesnt try hard, especially without any reciprocation, ive decided to delete. if he ever becomes real, and wants to make a friend, im here, but i wont keep chasing like a loser.

the other one, i think ive just gotten to the point where i feel bad for him. i cant continue watching him on his own self destructive path. when i first met him, he was genuine, caring and sweet. maybe the fact he had a bit of a complex helped. well, with time he has become narcissistic, egotistical and delusional and has lost himself in trying to fit in with others he wishes he was. Spending too much to fit in, being abused emotionally and financially and worse, getting into drugs. I lost him and cant watch him fall down the slippery slope any longer. I pray he gets to a point of utter frustration and gets back to the maturity level and sincerity that he had when we first met.